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| "Mi lyun"Mi lyun. The lingering threads of love or hate that remains in a person even though it's over, technically.
With time, hopefully, these threads will dissipate as well.
The wound heals and scabs over.
The scab falls off, leaving a scar or in the best case, simply fresh new skin.
I may be what you want, but not what you need.
You are neither what I want nor what I need.
Time will do its' work.
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| To-do List for the remainder of the summerI have just a little over two months left, but it's not too short of a time to let slip through my fingers.
- I'd like to pursue a research topic of mine which would delve into the differences in the business practices of Chinese and Korean businesses. In Flushing, the Chinese have continuously and persistently driven out Korean businesses out further and further and have taken over the Main St. area completely. I have some hypotheses as to why this is happening and some of the differences, but I'd like to do some actual research on this and let the Korean community know what they should be doing differently in their business practices. Should I email my econ professor about this? Hm...
- I'd like to gain some new experiences, and possibly earn some money. Some odd job or other. But if I don't, it's not incredibly disappointing. I am just really interested in exploring a field I've been interested in but haven't gotten the opportunity to explore.
- I'd like to read up more about behavioral economics and the different types of irrational behavior that people are subject to.
- I'd like to get back to my prolific writing self from years ago. I never knew blogging about stuff would get so big. Not that my stuff was the type of blogging that exists today... but still.
- I need to start taking driving classes.
- Research future career possibilities and schooling stuff. Blergh. | | |
| Working Reunion at Wellesley for the second time has been a lot of things. It's been fun, tiring, exciting, and cold so far. I've met more students here as well as alumnae and gotten involved in many different activities over a short period of two days. I've helped decorate, prepare dinner, serve drinks (non-alcoholic though sadly enough), help people check-in, direct them to places, etc. I've listened to Madeline Albright speak and helped set up the dinner she would eat that night. She's rather small and petite and looks frail but her voice is strong and loud. She is funny, resolute, yet warm. I've been on my feet, dozing behind other workers, waiting for jobs to come in, and transporting ice, and drinks to class festivities. I've pondered whether or not to just stop working at 1 pm or keep going. I found out Hillary Clinton was at Jewett and saw her cute and serious looking Secret Service men. I've also tried to sleep in my freezing cold room for two nights so far, curling up, tossing and turning, and finally waking up to a sore right shoulder and neck. It's been fun being excited with the rest of the alumnae. And, I've got one more day of it. Hopefully, I'll get to watch the parade too. I always get teary-eyed at those things. It makes me look forward to when I get old and hopefully successful. To live a long and meaningful life and return to happy memories.
Also, to see the old couples and how they interact. It makes me really, sincerely hope that I can find someone with whom to grow old with and still be as cute a couple as these old couples are. Until our hair turns salt and pepper colored.
'Class of the 4's and 9's, congrats!' as this student goes to sleep while you guys drink the night away. Man, the amount of beer and wine they're having, sheesh!
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| I must say, today has been an interesting day.
Repent of the deeper reasons behind the sins, behind the acts.
Why is it we cling to things that have no meaning? To seek approval and acceptance from those whose approval and acceptance mean nothing? Of course, to some degree, seeking approval and acceptance from others is a social norm. It's one that is useful. However, to the extreme, it is a destructive force, leading you deeper into sin. The chain of sin expands and grows as you try to fulfill some self-constructed ideal situation. For these sins, repenting simply of these acts is useless. You will find another way to sin. But to repent of the reasons behind those sins, getting to the root of the problem is much more useful.
What is it that you are seeking? What are you afraid of? Why do you do that specific sinful act?
What is it you feel as if you lack? Who are you seeking acceptance from? Why should you even be asking these questions when you belong to God? With God, all these are obsolete.
No longer will I have to analyze the situation in fear of rejection or having someone be disapproving of me. It's ruined my life enough already. What that person might say if I said this or that. How I should dress. What kind of image I'm giving off. I'm done with trying to fix myself. Done with trying to save myself. Done with trying to live as others think I should live.
No more downward spiraling of stupid acts. No more looking back and stepping back. No more burning bridges. No more fretting of this life. It's not my life anyway. The freedom of letting it all go. I feel as if I should have realized this earlier, but what does it matter now that I have? Stop the fear, the worry, the anxiety, and trying to prevent rejection. Live, love, move forward.
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| So it's finals time and I've got 2 finals down and 2 more to go. I should be reading right now, but I've been a little distracted, so I just want to do something else for a bit. I just had coffee with one delicious French truffle. It was marvelous! I bought a box of truffles for cheap (because I'm such an awesome thrifty shopper) and they were really good truffles. Anyway, so I ate one and am now looking to share the rest with others interested in having a truffle with coffee. Any more than just one truffle was way more than enough for me, even with the bitter coffee.
Pandora + Sara Bareilles = lovely music. I love it all :)
The nice soft music with the piano, soothing voice and calming lyrics.
I look forward to bringing Jake home with me. He's such a comfort to me. To know something living is waiting for me, even if it is just to feed him. I love his colors. The solid colored beta fish I've seen just don't appeal to me. I hope he lives a long, long time with me.
And it'll be nice to go home this summer. Although it does mean packing... having to think of packing during finals week isn't nice.
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