| | I must say, today has been an interesting day.
Repent of the deeper reasons behind the sins, behind the acts.
Why is it we cling to things that have no meaning? To seek approval and acceptance from those whose approval and acceptance mean nothing? Of course, to some degree, seeking approval and acceptance from others is a social norm. It's one that is useful. However, to the extreme, it is a destructive force, leading you deeper into sin. The chain of sin expands and grows as you try to fulfill some self-constructed ideal situation. For these sins, repenting simply of these acts is useless. You will find another way to sin. But to repent of the reasons behind those sins, getting to the root of the problem is much more useful.
What is it that you are seeking? What are you afraid of? Why do you do that specific sinful act?
What is it you feel as if you lack? Who are you seeking acceptance from? Why should you even be asking these questions when you belong to God? With God, all these are obsolete.
No longer will I have to analyze the situation in fear of rejection or having someone be disapproving of me. It's ruined my life enough already. What that person might say if I said this or that. How I should dress. What kind of image I'm giving off. I'm done with trying to fix myself. Done with trying to save myself. Done with trying to live as others think I should live.
No more downward spiraling of stupid acts. No more looking back and stepping back. No more burning bridges. No more fretting of this life. It's not my life anyway. The freedom of letting it all go. I feel as if I should have realized this earlier, but what does it matter now that I have? Stop the fear, the worry, the anxiety, and trying to prevent rejection. Live, love, move forward.
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